I've been depressed -- well, who wouldn't be? I can't think about my mum's car loan without flipping out, and although I probably should've done things differently I did what I could do. I am hoping the trailer sells for enough to cover the loan. I fail to see how anything is better because my mum had a will. If she hadn't had a will perhaps I could just have walked away. Instead this is going to kill me, too, and all because of evil salemen preying on my elderly mother. Why didn't anyone say to me, "Don't be an executrix!!!"? How could it have been worse if I hadn't been an executrix? I don't see it. I had to meet, on Wednesday after work and a jin shin appointment, the estate sale couple, the real estate guy, and my mum's friend's who'd said they would take some of the remainder for their garage sale (books, mahogany chairs, and a chest of drawers). The estate couple kindly took what was left -- probably 10 boxes of books -- to the 'Will. Chuck has decided to put the place on the market at $14,750. The loan is $12,700. -- so it won't cover, but will be close. If it sells. I have hired a cleaning service to clean the trailer. My little sister, who is Down's Syndrome, has the checks from her bank account and won't give them up. And I received 5 MSN notices last week, addressed to her, to the effect that "your credit card can't be authorised." Ha. Unfortunately I'm tired and just have no degree of caring for any of this, including my life. I'm trying to get the yearbook finished -- that's my main deal right now. Students are working on their portfolios. If I felt better I would work more hours because I need to. I guess I should try not to be so obsessed with my own problems. Yeah, MS and HepC are NOTHING, man -- just don't ever become an executrix. It's a good reason to walk off and become a holy man (As far as I know there aren't any holy women. Are we too practical? Not quite selfish enough? Or maybe our DEFINITIONS are different, so a holy woman can't quit the world, but has to carry on).