God of the Blog

Yes, I realise I only infrequently make sense. This my blog, though, so I can say what I like.

Lately I've been unable to tell months apart.

Well, I'm completely non-timebased, anyway -- and my vision of things at the moment is a huge mountain to be scaled (work day, father's party, etc.) that completely blocks the view ahead. A mountain which when scaled reveals ANOTHER mountain ahead that blocks -- and so on ad infinitum.

I remember having a feeling some months after my mum died that I was waking up -- winter had turned to spring, and all of a sudden I was aware of it. The winter had gone on for me months and months longer than it had in reality. I think perhaps I'm having the same kind of experience. On Monday at jin shin I asked Frank if he was giving up on me. He said, "No." I said I seemed to need verbal reassurance periodically. He said we all do.